Sunday, July 10, 2005

Three again

After an uncomfortable wait in the hospital, Melanie finally had surgery on Wednesday evening, and her Gall Bladder was removed. Knowing that the wait was finally over lifted an extremely heavy weight from my heart and I was very excited when she informed me that she was being released the next morning. I still had to go to work though, so Stefan picked her up and she began her slow convalescence at home.
Even though Gall Bladder surgery is fairly simple (three tiny incision marks are the only evidence it occurred), it will be a few more days before Melanie is back at full strength. Even though her recovery has been pretty good, and she's certainly not a whiner about it (I'd have to tie her to a chair to make her stop doing housework), she still finds it somewhat difficult to pick Nathaniel up to move around with him. Therefore, she'll need some extra support at home until all is ok. Enter Super Opa. Stefan has been amazing during the last week, taking care of Nathaniel and doing odd chores around the house, and we are forever grateful to him and Doris for their support.
HOPEFULLY, with all of this turmoil slowly heading behind us, it will be time to regroup my writing skills, put my thoughts back together in a linear fashion, and start being creative again.

Until then, my big stress relief has been Ebay. Two items sold and shipped. A third item is being bid on now, and will close around this time tomorrow night. Somewhat exciting!

Monday, July 04, 2005

Alone with the baby

I'm a lonely father right now. Melanie suffered another serious Gallstone attack on Sunday afternoon, and I had to rush her to the hospital. She's now been in for two nights now, and I still have no word as to whether or not they will be removing her Gall Bladder. When I visited her today on my way home from work, she indicated to me that she was going to be scoped this evening, but has since not yet called me with the final word...it's stressing me out.

Thank god for my inlaws...Doris and Stefan have been watching Nathaniel whenever I need them...whether it was for the trip to the hospital, or for when I have to go to work. I would love to take time off again, but I just can't do that right now. Thankfully, my boss has been very supportive of my time lately...I was late coming in today due to the fact I was at the hospital until almost 1:30am and Stefan couldn't arrive until 9am this morning, and tomorrow he can't be here until around 11am. It helps a lot to not feel pressure on that side...I certainly don't need anymore stress. However, taking full days off right now will just cause further problems in the workplace. I don't feel that my job is threatened, but there's only so much time you can take off in a calendar year without being bitch-slapped.

The sensation of feeling totally helpless is absolutely horrifying. When Melanie began to suffer the pains, I did all I could to ease her through it, but there is very little I can do. My one attempt to make her a homeopathic remedy that I researched had quite the opposite effect (and a very unpleasant one too for all of us too) than I anticipated, and I was pulled between mopping up the mess (thank god I have a strong stomach), comforting her and ensuring that Nathaniel was ok. I find I don't multi-task well these days, and my stress level raises accordingly whenever put in those situations.

So, I am home alone with Nathaniel, and missing my wife a lot. Nathaniel waswide awake for the entire evening, and I got him to sleep around 11. I figure he'll have me up at least once during the night...so I'd better catch some sleep now to get my strength up. I'll post more soon.